In Like a Lion

On the night before my grandmother died, a tornado

struck Mills County. You can always tell when it’s on the way; just slip your hand

behind the sash and press your nose against the screen.

 

Can you hear the echo of sparrows? Do you smell the sweet-

ness of rain? Then draw in your hand and kiss your children and thank your God

on behalf of the crops. You will sleep soundly tonight.

 

But if it is quiet and the air becomes thick in your mouth, and if it

rolls through your lungs ‘til its weight sparks out of the tips of your hair, then fold

your hands and kiss the ground and beg the Lord for mercy.

 

Watch and wait for the changing of land; the trees bend over,

the grasses lie down, and you bow your head to the dirt. Ashes to ashes,

dust to dust, and nothing is as it should be.

 

On the morning that my grandmother died, the earth gave up her fight.

She shed her rage, and degrees, by the dozen ‘til the roads iced over and the birds

went dumb and the lightning froze on our fingers, ashamed.

 

But when it came time to bury her bones, the earth let her

in by the old fishing pond. I put my hand to the sash and strained. Was that

a sparrow? Was there rain in air? Fire in my chest?

 

A bird eulogized as we lowered her in. I brushed

sparks of static from the edge of my sleeve and thanked God for the crops

and for letting me walk my life on her back.

Laura Kauffman

Laura Kauffman lives and writes in the Loess Hills of Iowa. After receiving her Master's degree in counseling, she traded in her couch and clipboard for sippy cups and strollers. Now you can find her roaming the woods with her personal band of Lost Boys, searching for the holy in the mundane.
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