An Offering of Grace

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The Mudroom is a place for the stories emerging in the midst of the mess.” ~ The Mudroom

Right now I feel like I’m living in a mess. There are so many demands, a lot of which I put on myself, voices in my head telling me what I must do.

Get rid of the clutter. You should be keeping your house cleaner. Why can’t you have regular nutritious meals? You’re too fat. You need to exercise more. Face it, you’ll never lose weight. You said you were going to have regular times of prayer every day, but you aren’t doing it.

You really should try to see your mother more than once a week. She is lonely. Shouldn’t you be there whenever she wants you? You should keep in better touch with all your children and grandchildren. You need to be doing more with your husband.

You should have kept better records in home school so your son could have a better transcript. You’ll never make that deadline. Why do you even try? You aren’t a writer. Others can do it so much better.

And the guilt just continues to build while I listen to those voices.

First I try to make excuses as if I need to justify why I can’t or don’t do those things. I am only one person and I am not superhuman, so how can I possibly do it all? After some time of this back and forth deliberation, I finally see that I am the one putting on the pressure. It’s like I’m dwelling in a guilt-ridden cage of my own making. I feel like I’m constantly falling short and will never find release.

But Jesus tells me a different story.

Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light. (Matthew 11:28-30)

I then realize I am tired. My weariness often clouds my mind and magnifies the real and/or perceived problems. I don’t need to make excuses, but instead, run to Jesus who lavishes me with love and offers grace. The good news is that I am accepted because Jesus conquered death by rising from the grave. I cannot add anything in payment and I’m not expected to. I don’t have to keep striving and piling on the guilt. He wants my life, not to beat me into submission but to forgive and to draw me close in a loving embrace. He has extended unbelievable grace to me.

Run to Jesus

When the storms of life

Stir up waves of despair

Threatening to pull you down

 

Run to the One who loves you

Run to the One who never fails

Run to the One who brings peace

 

Run to the only One

Who can bring you hope

And lift you up

 

Run to Jesus

The Righteous One

Our Lord and Savior

                                ~gayl wright

His love is incomparable.

When I yield to His calling I am made stronger. His Spirit in me gives new life, and I am free to live in peace with joy rather than worrying if I’ve done enough to please God. His love covers me fully. I am able to see things from a different perspective. The problems and voices in my mind may not go completely away, but they don’t have to rule or define me. I can do things intentionally rather than being pushed along from one to another. Of course it’s a lesson I have not fully learned and it’s easy to fall back into the trap, but God always gives me grace.

Because of the grace I have been shown, I am able to accept my limitations. I can then extend grace to the other people in my life, doing what I can with a spirit of praise to God. There is joy to be found in ordinary, everyday things. My life will be an offering to God as I follow His leading, pursuing the dreams He has given along with caring for those in my charge. 

He will take my small offerings and make them worthy. He will do the same for you.

Gayl Wright

Gayl Wright

Gayl Wright makes her home in upstate South Carolina. She is a seeker of truth who looks for beauty in ordinary things. A self-taught poet, photographer, and artist, she loves to capture what she finds using her talents to encourage others and glorify God.
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